I have thought a lot during the night about
What I should write today. There are so many
Things, and I don’t want to seem as I am
Repeating them.
It is not necessarily in order, but
Then why would they be, since they are
All mixed up in me?
Darn it, Daddy, did you think one more drink
Would make you better, like me, one more
Prayer would make you care?
Wow Daddy, the nightmares were bad,
Fearful thoughts struck my mind.
I was confused between God and you, I
Thought He was like you, never here,
It was so unclear. I knew about love in
My head, but not in my heart. Even though
I had sworn not to follow you, I found
Myself doing it, only in a different way.
My way was safe I thought.
And then again a glimpse of something
Appeared, I’m not
Sure why, you know as well as I,
We had no values, no religious ties.
One day after wondering why, I was
Stricken with a God driven direction.
Sitting in a pew that I had been guided to,
The organ struck the chords, as from the
Hymnal I sang. I knew this was the answer
To all my questionings.
My mind was ushered into a cathedral
Filled with mighty crescendos. Then
Guided to the altar, I faltered at the
Solemnity of this place. This truly was
By far the greatest experience of all.
I just wanted to share this with you,
So you would know I would be alright!
