Well, after my visit I went back home and as usual we began moving around from town to town, schools had rules and I had to relearn each one. I got into trouble Daddy, when I came back, I started chasing around, doing stupid things that you can only do in a mining town, with gambling, bars and fights. Those evil men did things to me that were not right. Many times I was up all night. Often there was no food. Sometimes if I was lucky a can of Dinty Moore Stew would do. I’m so glad you didn’t know this, your heart would have been broken in two, for all your child went through. But I wouldn’t be honest if I denied my anger. Where were you when I needed protection from danger? But Daddy, you would have been proud of me, I learned to survive. It is amazing what children can do when they try. I tried many things to protect myself. They were not the smart thing to do, but it was all I knew. I developed a set of rules to deal with the craziness of things. I somehow got through the years but there were many tears. I had difficulties with Mama. She was unbearable to live with and I wanted out of the trauma. She kept going into those buildings with flashing lights for hours. I stared in the windows waiting for her to come out, but she would never win those games she played, even though she would go every day. I thought the way was to get married at sixteen, and before you knew it I had two babies living in a mining town. But I knew in my heart I would never raise them like me. Well, this is pretty long and you have bent your ear to hear this story. You know Daddy, I really appreciate you listening now, since you didn’t hear or see me when I was a child. Oh, and one thing I forgot to mention, there will be mistakes in these letters, since they are written from a little girl’s heart, even though I’m a grown up now. I know you loved me Daddy, you just didn’t know what to do, your illness kept us apart. Well, I will visit you again soon, I have much more to say to you!