More love letters…

“You Would Have Been Proud Of Me”

Well after my visit, I went back

Home and as usual we began

Moving around from town to


Schools had rules and I had to

Relearn each one.

I got into trouble Daddy, when

I came back, I started chasing

Around, doing stupid things

That you can only do in a mining

Town, with gambling, bars and


Those evil men did things to me

That were not right.

Many times I was up all night,

Often there was no food. Sometimes

If I was lucky a can of Dinty Moore

Stew would do.

I’m so glad you didn’t know this,

Your heart would have been broken

In two for all your child went


But I wouldn’t be honest if I denied

My anger. Where were you when

I needed protection from danger?

But Daddy, you would have been

Proud of me, I learned to survive,

It is amazing what children can do

When they try.

I tried many things to protect myself.

They were not the smart thing to

Do, but it was all I knew.

I developed a set of rules to deal

With the craziness of things.

I somehow got through the years

But there were many tears.

I had difficulties with Mama. She

Was unbearable to live with and

I wanted out of the trauma.

She kept going into those

Buildings with flashing lights for

Hours. I stared in the windows

Waiting for her to come out, but

She would never

Win those games she played,

Even though she would go every


I thought the way was to get

Married at sixteen, and before you

Knew it I had two children, living in

A mining town.

But I knew in my heart I would

Never raise them like me.

Well, this is pretty long and you have

Bent your ear to hear this story.

You know Daddy, I really

Appreciate you listening now, since

You didn’t hear or see me when I

Was a child.

Oh, and one thing I forgot to mention,

There will be mistakes in these

Letters, since they are written from

A little girl’s heart, even though I’m

A grown up now.

I know you loved me Daddy, you just

Didn’t know what to do, your illness

Kept us apart.

Well, I will visit you again soon, I have

Much more to say to you!

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