Love letter #4A transformation takes place
“And then one day I was stricken with
a God given direction”
You know Daddy,
I had no other place to go, other
Than where you had gone,
And that was not an option.
As I said, “ I will choose a better
Way than yours. My deepest desire
Was to go in a different direction
Than the one you had chosen.
Did you think one more drink
Would make you better?
Like me, one more prayer would
Make you care?
Sitting in a pew, looking for you,
That I had been guided to, the
Organ struck the chords as from
The hymnal I sang. I knew this
Was the answer to all of my
Questionings. My heart rejoiced
And I was truly blessed.
I was ushered into a cathedral
Filled with mighty crescendos.
Then guided to the altar, I
Faltered at the solemnity of
It is hard to explain from where
This came. You know we had no
values, or religious ties.
I felt I had arrived!
But it wasn’t something that came
From me, there was a Higher source
To rescue me.
Of course the enemy was angry
That I had been delivered from
Our life of hell,
Coming in like a thief to control me,
With words I find it hard to tell.
I had always feared I would turn
Out like mama, and her crazy
Ways, and now I was afflicted with
A mental illness of doubt and fear.
Thoughts were tormenting and
Not my own. Like an arrow shot
Through my head. I tried, as I fled
from this body of mine.
Threatening the very depths of
Darkness deep within. In a fragile
Waiting to be freed from
Chains that bound me with
The enemy’s lies.
Little did I know there
Was a battle to be fought,
Through this journey of
That plagued my life!
But I was never alone, in
The midst of all of this, I
Was given strength to carry on!