A river of peace

We know it is true, “You never slumber nor sleep” or turn Your ear
from those who weep
Midst turmoil and fear it is peace we need!

“Come now and let us reason together” it is said –
“You shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water that
brings forth its fruit in its season”

Quotations from The Holy Scriptures

love letters to daddy

Love letter #5

I have some words I would like
to share with you

“It is so quiet and peaceful here”

Good morning Daddy,
its your little girl, do
you remember me?
I have come to visit

I’ll just sit here by
your side

It has been such a long
time since you died
it is so calm and peaceful

I see an angel guarding
your grave
it is quite strange
I don’t understand why

this would be, since you
didn’t have any angelic
virtues that I could see

But I like reading your
name upon your stone
It helps me to know you
really did exist

because it is hard to
believe since it was so
long ago

I remember all the times
you were stoned and the
times you left me alone

really I don’t want to
remember you like this

After you got sick, it was
so hard to see you like
once again I resolved I
would never continue
in your ways

My heart is saddened
it is hard to say everything
I would like to say

So I will save them for my
next letter to you…

love letters to daddy

Love letter #4

A transformation takes place

“And then one day I was stricken with
a God given direction”

You know Daddy,

I had no other place to go, other
Than where you had gone,
And that was not an option.

As I said, “ I will choose a better
Way than yours. My deepest desire
Was to go in a different direction
Than the one you had chosen.

Did you think one more drink
Would make you better?
Like me, one more prayer would
Make you care?

Sitting in a pew, looking for you,
That I had been guided to, the
Organ struck the chords as from
The hymnal I sang. I knew this
Was the answer to all of my
Questionings. My heart rejoiced
And I was truly blessed.

I was ushered into a cathedral
Filled with mighty crescendos.
Then guided to the altar, I
Faltered at the solemnity of
This place.

It is hard to explain from where
This came. You know we had no
values, or religious ties.

I felt I had arrived!

But it wasn’t something that came
From me, there was a Higher source
To rescue me.

Of course the enemy was angry
That I had been delivered from
Our life of hell,
Coming in like a thief to control me,
With words I find it hard to tell.

I had always feared I would turn
Out like mama, and her crazy
Ways, and now I was afflicted with
A mental illness of doubt and fear.

Thoughts were tormenting and
Not my own. Like an arrow shot
Through my head. I tried, as I fled
from this body of mine.

Threatening the very depths of
Darkness deep within. In a fragile
Waiting to be freed from
Chains that bound me with
The enemy’s lies.

Little did I know there
Was a battle to be fought,
Through this journey of
Mental illness
That plagued my life!

But I was never alone, in
The midst of all of this, I
Was given strength to carry on!