“And then one day I was stricken with a God given direction”
You know Daddy,
I had no other place to go, other Than where you had gone, And that was not an option.
As I said, “ I will choose a better Way than yours. My deepest desire Was to go in a different direction Than the one you had chosen. ~~~~
Did you think one more drink Would make you better? Like me, one more prayer would Make you care?
Sitting in a pew, looking for you, That I had been guided to, the Organ struck the chords as from The hymnal I sang. I knew this Was the answer to all of my Questionings. My heart rejoiced And I was truly blessed. ~~~~
I was ushered into a cathedral Filled with mighty crescendos. Then guided to the altar, I Faltered at the solemnity of This place.
It is hard to explain from where This came. You know we had no values, or religious ties.
I felt I had arrived!
But it wasn’t something that came From me, there was a Higher source To rescue me.
Of course the enemy was angry That I had been delivered from Our life of hell, Coming in like a thief to control me, With words I find it hard to tell.
I had always feared I would turn Out like mama, and her crazy Ways, and now I was afflicted with A mental illness of doubt and fear.
Thoughts were tormenting and Not my own. Like an arrow shot Through my head. I tried, as I fled from this body of mine.
Threatening the very depths of Darkness deep within. In a fragile State, Waiting to be freed from Chains that bound me with The enemy’s lies.
Little did I know there Was a battle to be fought, Through this journey of Mental illness That plagued my life!
But I was never alone, in The midst of all of this, I Was given strength to carry on!