A person can only handle so much, then things begin to explode. Repressed memories, reminders of the past, all play a part in this thing called life.
**** The foundation is weak, it seeks its own level. Rusty pipes leak, joints creak. Red climbing roses speckled with peeling paint, from decades of neglect. Age has had its effects. The attic bears the burden of this house of ruptures and fissures, storing baggage in rafters…it is full and ready to blow, it has capacity to hold no more. I am hesitant to go in, but that is not strange, I left long ago, it was too much for me, I split in two, leaving my child, a part of me, behind. But she followed me in my mind. In my dreams I could hear her cry, in my nightmares she would scream. I can bare it no longer, I have to return, to claim what is rightfully mine. Reaching in, I pull her out, now with me she shall remain. With such weight, beams crumble, into the house they are falling. A soft glow of orange erupts into red tongues of fire, consuming the rooms. A gust of wind fans the blaze, until little remains, but ashes and dust, and a few childhood remembrances, that survived this holocaust. The sole of a shoe that once held my foot, covered in soot. My pink dress smolders in cinders. A doll looking injured with charred eyes and lips. Her hair on edge with scars on her head. A book with singed ruffled edges, opened to a nursery rhyme, “And all fell down.” I am astounded! Walking through the rubble, I see what trouble the neglect of this house has caused. Sitting amidst ashes, tears begin to fall. This house had been my body, to it I had not been kind. I really didn’t want to leave, I did not know what else to do, if I had stayed I would have lost my mind. This house had been deserted, the pain it bore, tore a hole in my soul. It must be restored!… Hinges must be replaced, as well as windows and doors. Who will do this, I must have help? I now look to the Rebuilder of broken walls, the Restorer of houses in ruin. He takes the destruction and waste, preparing a dwelling place, one that is built with His love and grace!