A Story Of Deliverance

“I felt the pain of the dry desert sand, the
earth crumbled beneath my feet, as I searched
for peace”

Words of a child left desolate and forlorn”

A story of a child abandoned and forsaken in mining
towns of Nevada, left to fiend for herself among
abuse and neglect.
The lessons learned in her desert cry were stepping
stones to find deliverance and freedom.

Words from the book “Mining Town Girl”

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“I Was Perfused With The Scent Of My Mother”

Words Of A Child Of An Addicted Mother

Often I Have Wondered In My life, If My Experiences Have Been
Unique, Or If You As A Reader Can Relate And Understand The
Agony And Pain We Share

One Of My Experiences Of Many, Written Below In Poetic Form

As she dressed for the party,
I watched intently, my eyes
followed her every move.
Sitting on the blue quilted chair
in my nightie, with my elbows
resting on the table, I was
mesmerized as she slowly drew her silk
stockings, then pulling a slip over
her head, she gracefully stepped into
a black dress, clinging to her thin
little body.
Her dark hair combed with care,
pulled back with a shiny barrette,
and with a finishing touch, a
necklace of pearls and matching
earrings, she stood before the mirror,
and as the light
from the window fell upon her, she
was beautiful, like a lustrous pearl
in emerald green grass, and I loved
her so much, even though she was
out of touch with her little girl.
Reaching for a small lavender bottle
of perfume, she applied sweet scents
behind each ear, and then smiling
at me, dabbing a drop on each of my
cheeks with a teasing grin. It melted
into my memory, my skin was
perfused with the scent of my
mother. Asking if I could put on
a dress and play outside on my
tricycle, she bent down low and
kissed me goodbye. I remember the
sense of abandonment I felt.
Would she come back?
Would I be left alone while she
partied all night?
Well, she might!

The Garden

The Lord God Planted A Garden In Eden

Genesis Two

“Of Every Tree In The Garden You May
Freely Eat”

“But Of The Tree Of Good And Evil You
Shall Not Eat”

She sat in the garden in quietness and trust,
a garden full of trees, but one in the midst
she must not touch, it was forbidden.
The sun reflects apples of burnished gold,
with leaves of vivid green. A lustrous sheen
of light surrounds it, a dazzling sight before
her eyes. She is astounded by its beauty as
she slowly rises, but she had remembered
God’s words of caution,” do not touch it,
or else she would surely die.”

Then The Serpent Said To The Woman
“You Will Not Surely Die”

Genesis Three

There is a rustling sound and to her
surprise, a serpent is resting among
branches. She could not resist and
went closer and found it pleasing.
He saw her coming and slithered to
her side, whispering –
“Come, touch the fruit and eat, you
will not die, but you will be as wise
as your God and I.”
She is startled at its gaze as she
looks in its eyes and hears its
deceptive words.
Closer and closer she nears the tree,
bending her ear to the serpents call,
plucking the fruit and then she falls.
Running to her helpmate, she passes
the fruit that he may eat and join her
They stood at the gate in a shy
embrace, as God came walking in the
coolness of day, looking for His
children who had disobeyed. They hid
among the trees in fear, then heard
Him speak, “My love and forgiveness
is with you, a Way has been provided
that you will be saved.” The guardian
angels wept softly as they closed the
doors of the gate.
The garden’s once tethered breeze
now blows with fury. A chain of
lightning with distant thunder, then
rain appears.
Their bodies once clothed with
light, now became garments of
leaves clinging to their skin.
Vines and flowers began to
hang their heads, ones they had
dressed in beauty, now became
But one special Vine was given,
planted by the hand of God, its
branches filling the earth with
pardon and love.
Over miles of distant lands and
many seas, through violent winds
and tragedy, wherever man would
live, the Vine would follow them.
Its ‘Tender Roots’ will survive,
producing fruit, the wine press
has been trodden, the grapes
crushed, a crimson robe is given,
stained with our sins and stricken!

We have been promised our sins are forgiven


A Child’s Journey Through Darkness

“I am not sure what this is all about”

Written by a child birthed into a world
of doubt

Father is holding her with his arm,
she is sobbing in pain. The white
clad doctor in alarm, rushes through
the hospital door. Water is
running down mother’s legs unto
the floor. I begin to ooze between
my mother’s loins, when suddenly
I stop. They quickly pull a bed over,
in anguish she lies. A resistant birth,
in suffering she cries. They pull
me out with metal claws, squeezing
my head, with scissors they cut the
umbilical cord. I have arrived!
I am set aside, as they mop up
afterbirth and water, nurses running
to beds of screaming mothers.
A darkness follows me, from an
infant it encloses me. My eyes are
pinched by blackness, I am
accompanied by sadness. Bringing
me home, my tapered crown is
covered with a cap. Dressed in
pink, she holds me in her lap, as
I sink into a sleep, then waking to
the sound of the tinkling of glass,
of people laughing and having
drinks. Friends and family come
to see this baby, curious to see if I
am normal. I am a gazing ball as
they stare, not sure of what lays
in this cradle. The day comes when
I open my eyes, I look around
at the strange objects, my mind
trying to grasp the colors, smells
and words of curse with adverse
sounds. The very first words I

hear…even as I begin to creep,
there is something that is not
right. I weep in my sleep, waking
to somber thoughts, not knowing
what they are all about. Whispers
are about me, I am sitting in the
center of an atrocity, I am filled
with curiosity. Who are they?
With one fist in my mouth,
trying not to cry, clutching my
doll…she comes into my room
and with a jerk I awake, crawling
out of bed. Two years old,
I am a football! A group of men
are acting strange and laughing.
One comes and picks me up,
throwing me in the air,
taking turns, catching me.
One time they miss! I drop to
the floor, hitting my head.
Touchdown! I am dazed. Red
fluid leaks out. People stand
around…the stage has been
set, could this be the start of
A child’s journey through

Excerpts from the book by
the author –
“Weeping Child To Forgiving Child”

The Spin Of Life

“It always seemed like I was reeling and spinning,
that their was no solid ground”…

Words from a child who one day would
be placed far above her depths of despair.

“Children are resilient, loving and forgiving,
always trusting midst chaos and confusion

There had always been a hand over her,
that one day would be revealed

I ‘m not sure when or why all of this happened, a life like a spinning top, never finding a landing. The clock of my life
had been turned back, sordid thoughts, clinging to each
other, the hands not willing to go forward.
In a normal person’s thinking, they automatically shut
off the thoughts and go on to more pleasing ones.
They can stop it just like that! I never had that privilege,
mine were stuck like glue, defying any means of
separation, causing me much frustration.
In a child’s mind of imaginary people playing the part
of existing role models, it turns out alright, if they are
lucky enough to have had safe and sound boundaries placed in their lives. But in the beginning of my imaginary
persona, they were far from normal, a father bombed
with alcohol, a mother addicted to gambling, abusive
stepfathers with no morals. I really never had the
opportunity to question this existence. It just was!
I remember as a child, the loneliness and abandonment.
I knew something wasn’t right, the constant defeat
chasing me, but then what was right? When I think
in retrospect, it beguiles my mind, that to survive all
of this was a feat worth mentioning. There was no
rhyme or reason for their cruel acts. I looked to my
role models of this pitiful existence as my heroes, but
then why wouldn’t I? I was unable to see what they
lacked. In a child’s eyes this is all I knew. But I grew
despite all of their abusive ways, portrayed on a daily
basis, (and nightly). When it seemed all the demons
and dragons played their mischievous acts, they knew
when to strike, fighting, screaming, attacking an
already compromised brain from trauma, wrapping their
chains about me. How could hope ever come out of such
chaos and confusion? But this child’s suffering would not
be wasted, it must be captured and saved, that one day all
of these meaningless deeds will hopefully bring healing,
as I share my story with others!

Facebook and Cyberspace

“Be yourself, everyone else is already taken.”

Oscar Wilde

I post my poems on Facebook poetry sites,
and just recently due to a glitch in the
system I was unable to receive FB emails,
to engage with other poets with their
comments and replies. I wrote a little
scenario of this experience and how we
become so dependent on technology and
when it doesn’t work we appreciate it even
more when we suddenly are left without

Facebook… you are a wonderment of

the internet. Where else could one
go to have their poems posted among
so many selected other’s?

But I have been away for a while, since
you cut me out of poetic cyberspace.
Because of your glitch have I been
put on the bottom of your list?

Being off the circuit of words has
questioned the theme I post. It
seems that love and romance is
the most well received. The
ravishingly words of erotic touch,

that brings about exhilarating
feelings. Of lovers gone astray
looking for others to fill their
But then I excitedly see new websites
of spirituality coming aboard, which
seems to blend within my reasoning.

Does it just take time to get back
in the circle? What drives people
to read a poet’s books? My books
have only received a few five star

I wonder how people get so
many followers? I have only one,
I’m not sure who it is, maybe one
that can relate to abuse,
abandonment and deliverance,
perhaps not the most popular

I try but the words just don’t come
out right, so I’ll just keep posting
the gift of words given to me, in
hopes that just one visitor will
stop by my sight, leaving a comment
to which I can reply. And of course
I’ll do the same for them. So FB, I’ll
wait for you to return to help me

And thank you Sean Thomas, for your
word ‘Awesome’ you don’t know
how that word gave me a glimmer
of hope to continue on!

“Fill your paper with the breathings
of your heart.”

William Wordsworth