“I Have Always Wished The Best For You”
…It is my daughter’s birthday today,
She turns sixty two, I had her when
I was very young and then another
One thirteen months later.
I was a very dysfunctional mother,
Coming from a bad background,
But I loved my children very much
And desired to raise them differently
Unfortunately I made mistakes which
I wish I could have done better.
My daughter has a difficult time with
Me (of which I understand since my
Mother was also difficult)
I find it very painful to
Receive rejection, maybe due to being
Rejected as a child, I had written this
What do I do with these two?
Four brown eyes staring at me
Little clenched fists,
I don’t think I can do this!
Alone with two in a mining town
When will they ever be weaned?
Would I treat them like I was?
I sure hope not!
Determined to change the course
Of my life, so my babies would be
Spared their mother’s strife!
Not feeling like a nuisance and
Have a chance!
All the right things I tried, some
Were wrong, I wasn’t very
But things turned out all right!
They learned how to crawl, talk,
Walk and run, they did alright!
I hope someday she will see, I
Just wanted the best for all
Three of us!